Over a year...

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Its been a long time since i have blogged in here.

MySpace kinda conquered my blog world! anyways.

So whats happened since then. Well the most recent was... well my boyfriend kinda dumped me and im not sure why. That was a couple days ago. A lot of mean things were said that i cant stop thinking about. It hurt my feelings a lot. But hes been calling. Saying he's sorry. That he regrets taking me for granted. But maybe this is what we needed. A break. Time apart. Just be friends and continue on with our lives for a while and see where the wind blows. I still have med school and all that jazz to finish so maybe i should be more serious about school and not give him the attention that I had given him for the past 2 and a half years or so.
I love him with all my heart, no doubt. But we cant let little things ruin the great things or there isnt anything left to appreciate and to preserve. Anyways.

I got a new car months back... about 4 months back. I love it! Shes a beauty! Her name is Victory since the color is victory red. Im doing excellent in school. I have the highest average in my Chem class.  But i love chem so whats new!

Anyways. Just prayers please. hope that i get over this heartbreak and not shed anymore tears and save them for when they are necessary.

Remember... Love is unconditional. If someone wants you to change to accomodate themselves and they still dont accept you, its NOT LOVE!!!
But I do know that i unconditionally love and accept Dave and maybe if he is the one God has selected to be my soulmate, he will see that and find a way to be reborn. If not, then I hope he finds his true love... the one he can feel the same feelings that i feel for him. And if thats what happens... Dave: please remember me and a positive loving way. dont give up! you will be successful! i know it! XOXOXO

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well looks like November is finally here. October was a crazy month. a lot of crap and too much drama to deal with... as you can see from the last entry. so Halloween was yesterday and i didnt go out since it rained and crap. But i did go out over the weekend! i dressed up as an angel and partied at my friend Carol's for her 21st birthday/engagement party. it was pretty fun! Dave was the devil of course. cant go wrong with that costume.

but anywho, i have an exam tomorrow and im waiting for this guy to email me back with notes and stuff. i really dont like government but i gotta take the course. ugh. and besides, its not that bad since i have a pretty easy teacher.

Well, my car is outta commission... so i am purchasing a new one.. and here is "THE ONE":

This is the Cobalt SS...

This is the Cobalt LT....

The SS is pretty pricy, but the LT is just bad ass. i love the car period.
Give me some feedback peoples. <3 ya

this is so crazy! listen to this crazy situation...

ok so Im at work and Dave leaves to go to Fuqua to pick up some phones and stuff. about 3 minutes after he leaves, this kid walks in and asks for Dave.
So i say, "Dave just left. He will be back in about and hour. Can I help you?"
Then he starts talking about how he is looking for a Nextel phone etc. we dont sell Nextel so that was kinda like.... ???
Then he said "i came in here before and Dave told me that you guys would probably have some phones in here." So i told him he would have to go into a Nextel store and blah blah blah. Then he said "Ok, tell dave i came by."

Me:   ok. whats your name?
Guy:  Carlos. I dont know if he will remember me.
Me:  Whats your last name?
Guy:  Aleman. Hes dating... well he talks to my sister. they used to date.
Me:   Who is your sister?
Guy:   Marcia.
Me:   Oh really, shes your sister?
Guy:   Yeah. You know her too?
Me:   Well, I've heard about her from a long time ago. I'm Dave's girlfriend.

So im sitting there thinking about how this kid said "he's dating..." and then he stopped himself and said "he talks" to his sister. i hate it when that crap happens. it upsets me because this is all happening to me. its not happening to Dave. my ex's dont come around and talk shit. they dont bother me and they dont bother him. why is it happening to me? i dont want to live around clear lake or webster. this is what im going to have to deal with and i dont want to.

this sucks.
can i just disappear now, please?

Life is one big rollercoaster. You get scared when you are about to take the drop but its still fun as well as exausting and breath-taking. It can be jerky and rough... and definately scary.

Sometimes i just want to give up and get off the ride. just put myself at ease and stay away from all the risks....but life is all about risks. Putting your heart on the line to love someone and risk them breaking it. Risking helping someone out so they can take advantage of you and just feed you to the wolves. Its really scary to know that there are people out to hurt you but its also satisfying to know that there will be those who will never let you down and always love you.... unconditionally.

I sometimes wonder where ill be in 10 years or so... hopefully working at a lab doing research and knowing that im contributing to something good... maybe married and having my own home with a dog and a cat and maybe a huge 50 gallon tank with exotic fish. I really would love to just know what to expect in 10 years. Unfortunately, i dont know and wont ever really know or be sure.

Im sure there are a lot of other people who feel the same way.

If any of you are out there.... leave me some props and comments. let me know how you feel. I would really like to hear some feedback. <3<3<3

"Here, now i see.. keeping everything inside"

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